dead end.

Ever get that feeling that everyone else in your life is moving on, graduating college, making plans, getting married, having babies, starting a life...and your stuck and feel like your running into a wall and keep smashing your head into it like a thousands times?! Ya I am there. I am just recently turned twenty three and was so exciting to spend my birthday with some great friends at our favorite night club at the beach. But it didn't go as planned before I even got there I had two friends cancel, and later in the night go ditched by my two other friends who thought it would be more fun to chill with some irish guys instead. Standing in the middle of the dance floor surounded by hundreds of people I have never felt so alone. Later that night after I got home I called the guy I have been talking to for a few months, he made me feel so much better and promised when I came to see him the next weekend we would go out for my birthday and he would make it all better. Going to bed with a smile on my face I felt so much better, just to wake up the next morning to him ignoring my text, my phone calls, and he deleted me off facebook. I was so confused and worried because I was leaving in four days to go see him and pay $500 for a hotel. Long story short I cancelled the hotel, and a few days later found out he had a girlfriend. Shocker! But I am not done, a week later he is engaged!!! Already down in the dumps I find out my ex how completey shattered my heart has a girlfriend, ( and I have been "single" for three years!!!!!!!!!!!!!), and my friend who is married and has a kid just found out she is prego, and, ya I am not done, my best friend who is dating some asshole who has cheated on her and broke up with her several times just proposed. So here is little ole me getting my heart broken, stomped on, and put through a ringer, and I have to put on a fake happy face for everyone while I feel like my life is stuck on repeat and everyone else around me gets a happy ending! I know I sound like a bitter bitch, thats because I am one. Your never supposed to compare your life to other people, and for me thats the hardest thing to do....